Saturday, August 7th, -2:30am-

Guess who can't sleep again? It's crazy how susceptible I am to jet lag! Well, at least I can take advantage of it and write in my journal a bit. :) So, I took the train today. It went really well, except that there was a 2 year-old child in my train car that was crying the whole time. I have no real problem with that, except that after an hour of piercing cries, it really gets on your nerves. I arrived in Cologne, a city next to Solingen, around 5pm where the beautiful Bianca, Peter Czernich's wife, was waiting for me. At first glance Bianca is tall and very thin. She has red hair and her face has a lot of character. That evening I learned that she is of German and Romanian descent. We went to go meet Peter, who was waiting by the car because he wasn't able to get a parking spot. For his part, Peter is also tall, and is of medium build. His hair is beginning to grey in places, and he has an expression of calm amusement on his face. The three of us headed to their building, in which both their apartment and studio are located. I first quickly visited the studio on the first floor, where I saw a white background and 3 min-sets. The first was all black, with black balloons stuck to the walls. The second was white tiled with a type of clear red paper over it to give it a tint. (I think it's supposed to bring to mind the famous, and now gone, White Room) The third set was all done in pink in a very Barbie style. This is partly where I will be shooting over the next two days. I think it might be possible to shoot outside as well, which would be great! There is also a room for hair and make-up, but I haven't yet seen the dressing room. :( That will be something fun to do tomorrow (Or rather today!) In short, the studio is very professional, and I can't wait to get a closer look at it later. When I was here 4 years ago, the studio was under construction and looked nothing like what I saw today.

After that brief visit I was able to see their apartment and to meet their charming daughter Laura. She is a completely adorable 4 year-old girl who smiles all the time. It's crazy how surrounded I've been by children on this trip! First on the plane, then in the houses around my hotel in Paris, then in the train, and now little Laura. But at least she is very nice and calm :) She particularly likes to go swimming in her little pool, on the terrace that Bianca & Peter made. I have to admit that the terrace is a great idea: it is hidden from the building by a type of roof so that no one can spy on you. After we talked for a bit, us three adults decided to rest for a bit, so we decided to leave the apartment and go to a lake near Solingen to cool down before supper. The lake is in fact the very same one where I did a photo shoot 4 years ago. It was weird seeing it again. You know, I feel like it has been a lot more than 4 years since I last came here. It seems like I was so much younger then, with my pink hair and my inexperience. So many things have happened so fast that it's hard to believe that 4 years went by so quickly. My body has changed, not just my breasts, but also everything in general. Thanks to the gym I am now thinner and more delicate, and I think I look more feminine than before. As far as modelling is concerned, I think my style of posing for the camera has also changed. I am more in control of my seduction and I can express a greater array of the emotions that I feel during a shoot. In four years, through hard work, I have been on the cover of over twenty fetish magazines and books, quit school due to a teacher's complaint about my web site, and I also quit my day job… I decided to give my all to this job and came to love it with as much passion as I did teaching. And if you're asking yourselves if I still love latex as much, the answer is without a doubt, yes. Now I have the chance to work with incredible designers who believe in me, and I can wear their superb creations that give me the chance to create all sorts of fun scenarios for my web site.

Well, after swimming we went to have a bite to eat at a cute little restaurant and got back here at around 10:30pm. I went to bed and couldn't sleep, as all my thoughts from the day were going round and round my head. It's a good thing I have this diary to babble in. It makes me feel less far from home, Martin, and you guys when I write in here. With a bit of luck, I'll be able to sleep for the 5 hours that are left before my first day of shooting…

Sunday, August 8th, -10pm-

I'm going to take a few minutes to write to you all before I forget the wonderful details of my shoot today. First off, I woke up at about 7:45am with the impression that I hadn't slept very well. But, I was nonetheless in good enough shape and ready to start the day. After breakfast, Peter and I went to the first floor studio; he had to finish setting up a few things, and I went straight to make-up. The make-up artist/hairdresser, Astrid, arrived late, which gave me the chance to take out all my latex clothes and shoes. When she got there I found her extremely pretty! She is tall with very long red hair and green eyes. Yum! I wouldn't be surprised if one of these days you see her in Marquis! For the first set I was to shoot in the pink mini-studio. Peter wanted to give me a Barbie look, only as an evil Barbie. Astrid darkened my eyes and put my hair up high with black pvc roses pinned to it. For my outfit, I put on my clear raspberry coloured gown and gloves from Polymorphe (Peter really liked this unusual latex colour, and I think it gave him the urge to take more of an interest in Polymorphe.) I shot a number of pictures either standing or sitting in front of a mirror, or on a furry fluorescent pink chair. After this outfit, I changed and put on my clear pink catsuit from Marquis, along with a black corset, black ankle boots, and gloves. Oh! I also had the chance to play dolls with a Barbie and wear some very Lolita-like glasses (see photo at the beginning of this Diary). :)

After a good deal of photos, we moved on to the next outfit, that was more dominatrix. Astrid didn't change my make-up much, but put my hair up differently and took out the roses. The outfit was clear black leggings and a top with a waist cincher, thigh high boots (Yes, really!), gloves, and a posture collar. A very dominatrix effect! I was posing with a riding crop and was sitting in a silver dentist chair. The only lighting was the flash, and it gave a very dramatic effect. I really liked this set-up. I found it very different to see myself as a dominatrix. I find I also had a little German look with the clothes and hairstyle. It was difficult to move around due to the stiff boots and the posture collar, but I enjoyed trying out a look that was new to me.

The third set-up needed another up-style for my hair and a make-up adjustment. This time for my outfit I wore my clear blue catsuit, blue corset, blue gloves, and blue posture collar from Polymorphe, along with black ankle boots. I was in the mini-studio with the black balloons this time and playing with them reminded me of all the balloon shots I've done in the past. The balloons were very shiny so they matched well with the latex. We did a bunch of pictures of me with the balloons and popping them with my heels before Peter and I decided I should put on my blue mask. I went to see Astrid so that she could take my hair down, and that's when I saw her blue relaxation mask (You know, the ones filled with blue gel that you put in the freezer) She jokingly said that the mask would go well with my outfit…but I didn't find the idea too absurd and I tried it on. Peter thought it was very funny and even interesting, so we took a few pictures with it on before we finally switched to the real latex mask with holes for the eyes and mouth. I did a number of pictures with the latex mask, and even got the idea to put on a black latex German type cap. It was both sexy and original at the same time. I find it very enjoyable that Peter is open to new ideas; it makes for more interactive and passionate shoots.

I don't really know what is on the menu for tomorrow. I think it will be a surprise for everyone. We're toying with the idea of taking a picture with the two Biancas together: her as a wicked witch and me as a princess. We'll see. It's also possible that we'll take some pictures by the lake where I did a shoot 4 years ago, if time permits. We shall see... In the meantime, I am very pleased with my first day shooting with Peter, especially since I didn't sleep much last night (It seems it's always like that!) Peter is easy to work with, is open to new ideas, and has an artistic spirit that values women. I am glad I came to Germany…

Monday 9th, 2pm

Our second day of shooting, which was yesterday, went very well. We started the make-up a little earlier, which allowed us to finish at 5pm. For our first set-up, I was dressed all in lilac and dark purple (Dress, jacket, stockings, gloves.) I asked to have my hair down at least once during the day, so that was the case for this first shoot. For the background, I posed on a bed whose mattress was covered in a black latex sheet. There was also a purple latex blanket to match my outfit. I think these photos went well. I really like this colour and I think it would be a good idea to have some clothes in it for my collection. I believe you will all like the second set-up once you see it. This time I was shooting with Peter's wife, Bianca Czernich. Two Biancas in the same shoot! And the concept was pretty good too: Bianca C. was the wicked witch and I was Snow White. Bianca C. was wearing a high red wig, and her make-up was very hard and cruel. She was wearing a long black dress along with the Orchid collar from Polymorphe. As for me, my costume was really great! I was wearing a black princess skirt decorated with blue and white latex bows on the bottom. I was also wearing a black and blue Victorian corset, blue gloves, and white and blue puffy sleeves. I also had on a short black wig with a blue latex bow as a headband. Seriously, I looked 16! It's crazy how much wigs change my appearance. This one in particular gave me a rounder face and a more playful look. We were both perfectly credible in our roles. And what better background than shooting outdoors in a clearing?! The location wasn't very far from the studio. There was even a picturesque restaurant next to where we were shooting. Some people walked by us and looked at what we were doing a bit, but that was all. It wasn't easy to walk on the grass in high heels, or not to lose our balance on the side of the water fountain. Nonetheless, we had a lot of fun, and I think it will make for a great photo-story!

We came back to the studio to fix up my hair and make-up a bit. The next outfit was the Little Red Riding Hood from Polymorphe that I was going to wear by the lake where I had posed 4 years ago. We though it would be a nice flashback to pose next to the walls where I had modelled for my first shoot with Peter. So, Astrid redid my hair and I got dressed. For those of you who have never seen the pictures of this outfit, it consists of stockings, garter belt, short skirt, g-string, short-sleeved top, clincher, short gloves, and a cape, all in red latex. On my feet, I wore 5" red pumps. We got to the lake around 4pm and it was very hot. Luckily I'm used to it, and anyways, I find it adds spice to the shoot. You know how I love challenges; they help me to push my limits. We found a spot by the lake where there were a lot of blackberry bushes, and a rock on which I could sit or crouch. I got the chance to eat a ton of blackberries and to squish some on me like I did 4 years ago. It was very special to me to redo this type of shoot; I can't get over how much I've changed (physically, mentally, both in my life and my career) in 4 years. Finally, after the blackberries, we went right into the lake. By the shore there was a bunch of people sun tanning that were watching, or outright laughing at us. I'm pretty used to people's reactions though, so it didn't affect my work at all. We took some pictures of me in the lake where, because of the corset, water got stuck between my breasts and my top. This let me pose for a few really funny pictures where I was getting rid of the water by squeezing my breasts together. :)

After the shoot, we took the opportunity to swim in the lake along with Bianca and their daughter. No, I did not go swimming in latex (I had just done that on camera,) but naked (except for a g-string because there were children around.) I can swim bare breasted here and nobody really leers at me. Hurray for Europe! Afterwards, we came back here to drop off their daughter and went to eat at a Brazilian restaurant in Düsseldorf, a large German city a half an hour from Solingen. The restaurant was in a fashionable area of the city, which, after supper, put us in the mood to go look at all the chic clothes with ridiculously high prices! We also got the chance to have a drink in a pub where we could soak our feet in a miniature pool. It was pretty cool, as well as refreshing! It's too bad the batteries in my camera had died :( We then returned to Solingen where I had my first good night's sleep since leaving Montreal. It did me a lot of good, and got me in shape for our last day of shooting, that we had planned for this morning…

This morning I unfortunately did not have a hairdresser or make-up artist, but I think I managed ok. I put my hair up and curled it, and I put on natural make-up, which was perfect for the outfit I was going to wear. It consisted of stockings, shorts, panties, a skirt, a bra, and a jacket, all of it transparent with a hint of yellow. It was a very original outfit: The bra had holes cut out over the nipples, and the skirt and jacket had a series of snap buttons that let me open and close them at my choosing. The set-up was once again on the latex covered bed only this time over the black sheet there was a clear one. The effect from this superimposition was pretty interesting to see, the clear latex created all kinds of textures and bubbles on the black latex. I posed for a pretty long time before undoing my hair so I could put a clear latex mask on my face. It was the first time I'd worn one this colour. I've worn black ones, red ones, clear blue ones, and clear black ones, but never a plain clear one. After I put it on I looked in the mirror, but I could hardly recognize myself. I think it made me look a little more psycho; sexy, but dangerous as well. I really liked the experience, as it was something very different that I was not used to doing. : And I think I needed Marquis for me to try it.

The shoot finished early in the afternoon, which put an end to the business portion of my trip. :) Hurray! We then headed to the lake to relax for a bit and I saw a fat woman teaching her poodle how to swim! It was both cute and stupid at the same time. This reminded me of how I miss my two babies (I mean my ferrets of course!) After the lake, we had a good barbecue in the company of wasps, and drank some strawberry wine. I fell completely in love with it and brought two bottles home. Who cares if my suitcase is heavy? If it bursts open, I'll save the wine and to hell with the rest!

And so ends my trip. I really appreciated working with Christophe Mourthé and Peter Czernich, and I think that they enjoyed working with me. Who knows? Maybe I'll come back to France and Germany sooner than I think. In the meantime, sleeping normally again will do me some good :)