The first time I was modeling, I was so nervous that I had to smoke marijuana in order to calm down. That's not a big habit of mine, but I must admit that it sometimes helps. Anyway, armed with a beautiful black latex dress I was ready to shoot. The sensation was strange. I will always be truthful enough to admit that I did not instantly fall in love with latex. I had bought a dress not long before that to surprise my boyfriend. But you already know this story since I told you about it in the About Me section.

Okay... what was I saying? Oh yeah... This night was hot at our apartment even though it was actually snowing outside. I was there, sitting on the couch in the living room, my joint between my fingers. I was watching Martin who was setting up his camera and trying to make the lighting right. I was nervous. Did I ever tell you that I didn't really like to have pictures taken of me? In fact, I hated it. Why? It's like I don't really know anymore. Maybe because I thought it was ridiculous to have to hold a pose or to smile or seem sad. Maybe also I didn't like to see myself on pictures. I don't know anymore. Anyway, I was very nervous and a bit uncertain. I didn't know what I was supposed to do. I didn't know if Martin was going to tellme what to do. I was very afraid to be ridiculous.

And then, everything was ready. It was time for me to face one of my fears. I must say that's the way I am: I don't like to be afraid of something, so I face it. That's like the first time Martin and I had seen latex at Il Boléro, I was scared at that moment. I had the impression that the situation was going beyond limits. But in fact, it was the fear of something new. So after a few days I faced that fear by buying the dress. :)

Now that everything was ready, I had to stand up and walk over to where Martin was telling me to. He had chosen to take the pictures in front of the wall in the living room. Painfully, I walked towards the wall. Sweet music was cheering me up and Martin's delicate movements were charming. I sometimes wondered, in a flash, why I was doing this since it didn't feel right. And I thought “Oh well! A bit of courage and it will be done!”

That's what I did. I first sat on a small living room stool, and I let myself go with the sensual music. I closed my eyes imagining that I was dancing languorously on a dance floor. I sometimes heard the camera's sound, but I prefered to try ignoring it. I was caressing my thighs and my chest like in a lascivious dance. I felt my head spinning under the effects of stress and marijuana. I was letting my imagination dream.

And then I sat on the floor. Martin wanted me to look at the camera. I felt very shy, like if the camera was undressing me completely. That's it! I felt naked. But I also felt important.

The shooting only lasted one hour at most. Today when I think about it, I'm happy to not be at this level anymore. I am not happy to not be afraid to seem ridiculous or stupid. Nowwhen I am modeling, I show off. I want the camera to capture my beauty, but I also want to share my emotions. I want to feel like I'm the most beautiful and scream to everyone: “Hey! Look at me! Ain't I cute?! Can you see how much fun I'm having?”

I couldn't describe at what point I like to be a model. I think that all is in the exhibition. I then feel very beautiful and nothing else matters. I seduce not only the camera, but also the one behind it. Everything becomes a game. Simply a game of pleasure, sensuality and invincibility. I know that latex makes me very beautiful. But there's a lot more to it. Latex isn't like other clothes. When I wear it, I feel like it's for a special event. Then the day's routine isn't the same. I feel like there is something very both mystic and chaotic that's going to happen. Exhibition or erotica, the desire to become a vamp or a model... it doesn't matter. Latex, as much as it can be a very serious desire, it can also be an accessory to my games. And I'm not talking about sex games, but also the game and pleasure of strutting in front of people. The pleasure to see how much this material is magical.

With time, I went beyond being shy and scared. Now, I need to do a shoot every month or so in order to satisfy myself. I'm always seeking new poses, new expressions, new clothes, and mostly, new places. Ideally, I would like to do my next shoot in a fountain wearing a transparent latex dress. But we first have to make the dress. :) My love for latex hasdeveloped in union with modeling. In fact, I would say that both helped each other. By combining latex and modeling, I noticed that I have a lot of talent, but I mostly have a lot of fun. That's it. This site isn't a commercial site. I sell my pictures in order to make more, in order to find new exciting places. We help each other. You look at me and I invest in making more pictures. But the most important is that we all have pleasure.

Some send me emails telling me at what point my pictures are nice and that they communicate a lot of energy. Some even told me that they prefer me to other fetish models who don't communicate anything. Many would tell me that my energy comes from my love or my pleasure... and they wouldn't be wrong. But most of all, I think that this special energy that you perceive comes from the fact that my pictures are truthful and simple. I'm not there just to smile to the camera. I live my pictures. I feel them. In fact, I would say that I do sincere modeling... :)

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Bianca